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it's very scary being depressed and sad when you haven't felt this way for awhile. it feels humiliating to come back to such a low place and feel like you have to get comfortable once again in such a rotten place. like standing in field full of dead, dull grass and the sun is shining too bright for you to fully enjoy a sunny day. a silent sigh will do as you accept your situation and the fact that this moment, this feeling will eventually settle down!

life takes you on a rollercoaster and right now, there are no highs or lows. it's just driving you forward and i wish for something to push me further but it's still oh, so slow, and you have no choice but to look forward and keep your eyes fixed on that one stupid thing. i live a very boring life and the depression doesn't keep anything exciting. it makes me very sad to do another thing.