marlboro, i eye you
Jul. 7th, 2024 11:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wmggwi have been nothing and will not amount to something worth attention. im feeling unloved tonight. super lonely. after i got picked up from my shift, i told my mom to drive to this gas station 20 mins away. i wanted to stay in the car a little longer and look out the window to see the empty highways.
my heart is soft and i am broken. there is no fantasy to live in when reality is the most real of it all. it hurts and id rather get stabbed with a knife (kidding) but again. i feel ill tonight. my heart aches but i must remember i have no purpose being in love. none for me, none for the other person. god why did you make me a libra and want someone badly. i can’t stand not being around someone but i can’t stand being by someone. i am a maniac, yes, that is what i am.
i will end my night again miserable and turn and toss in bed until 2am. i will forget this pain tomorrow but it’ll still exist the next time as a old wound. ouch
my heart is soft and i am broken. there is no fantasy to live in when reality is the most real of it all. it hurts and id rather get stabbed with a knife (kidding) but again. i feel ill tonight. my heart aches but i must remember i have no purpose being in love. none for me, none for the other person. god why did you make me a libra and want someone badly. i can’t stand not being around someone but i can’t stand being by someone. i am a maniac, yes, that is what i am.
i will end my night again miserable and turn and toss in bed until 2am. i will forget this pain tomorrow but it’ll still exist the next time as a old wound. ouch
