everything’s wrong

im so tired if this monotonous routine. wake, rinse, work, sleep, repeat. i dont know how to convey to any reader (or myself at that) that i am so exhausted. i’m so sad and i wish i could cry as a form of release but i cant. i have to go to work soon.

i work everyday and cant afford any day off because at my age, im going into student debt. first year of university. im so stressed about every single part of my life and im fighting with my parents and siblings about so much stuff. it really feels like theres no hope for me in this world and my crumbling mental state is just one of the reasons i want to die. my messy bedsheets. the vast amount of clothes i need to organize or recycle before i start school. i feel so bummed and burnt out before the real big thing happens. i feel like i should quit my job but thats my only source of income. i cant even take a break in my work schedule because its not allowed anymore for students to do that. haha. this might be my last entry before i lose it all